Lifehouse

This past Friday I went to see Lifehouse at a local fair. I was a bit saddened they were to the level where they now play at fairs, a fair which is right next to a Lowes for the record. But they were so good, I prefer them at a small venue where I have seen them before but they rock and put on a good show!
I was experimenting a lot with my camera but I got a couple good pics though. The woman in the white hat seemed to be in front of every pic I wanted to take. The second pic is their Aussie man.

Paso Robles

Went away this weekend with Jess, needed time away before school starts back up and had not seen Jess in a long time. We met up in Paso Robles which is the central Cali coast wine country. Were there Sat-Mon. Sat we met up, did lunch, drove towards coast, while taking time to explore the Madonna Inn. Had this piece of cake while there:




Wandered the Madonna Inn and then went to Pismo area and I got to flounder around in the ocean!!! After that we tried to go to the Hot Springs we went to which had an awesome website, but when we got there yea Not so awesome really, very scary, very sketch and we did not go. Went swimming in the pool instead, I loved swimming I miss swimming so much I should do more of it.

Sunday we went on a wine tour was fun, hit 4 wineries and also got the added bonus of getting to do an olive oil tasting mmmm mmmm good. I for some reason did not really take a lot of pictures there. Was fun though!

After that we wandered through Atascedero(prob spelled wrong) and San Luis Obispo, then up to Morro Bay where we had some dinner and enjoyed the cool air. And it is not every day you see post cards painted on the walls in bathrooms:



Today we had some breakfast and then headed home was a good trip and I got to see this wind tunnel of dirt on my way home which was pretty cool! Looked like a mini tornado.



On another fun note I seem to be popular with MCDonalds Drive Thru workers in Paso Robles, the first night we were there the guy was flirting in a "im going to tell you I am sore because i am awkward and don't know how to flirt kind of way" he was cute from what Jess said. The 2nd time we went through the guy had a fake Irish accent was amusing. We went back through ( there was diet cokes for 69 cents) later that night and the irish guy was there again but magically did not have an irish accent. So I called him on it, it was amusing. I also got to repulse a guy in the pool, not with the bathing suit, but when I told him I was going to be a PhD he stopped talking.

Now I am back in town and very sad to be back I love not being here lol.

Blue Baths

So I have been enjoying my LUSH baths but none as much as the blue one with seaweed in it. You can't really see the seaweed in the pics but there was a lot of it!!! You can see it a bit the little black specks! I loved it though it was cool.
I have also had a yellow tub which was very citrisy and a pink tub which looked like I had murdered someone in it. I have decided I love the bath bombs and do not like the bubble bath, it leaves clumps in the tub and really just is not as fun!

New Years Resolution Update

So as I sit at work and should be doing work I began thinking about random things and realized I have kept my new years resolution so far. This year I have not racked up any new regrets and I have cleared up a few old ones. I am quite proud of myself, apparently as long as my resolution has nothing to do with weight loss or dieting I may actually stand a chance at keeping it. I have been getting out more, taking more chances when it comes to dating and if things don't work out I don't worry about them being my fault as I am doing the best I can. This is not to say things have magically begun working out but I no longer am doing things that will lead to me regretting those things that don't work out. Like the k-fed look alike thought it had potential turns out it didn't but I tried and put myself out there so it is ok for me. So more than halfway through the year and I am doing well with no regrets yet!!!

On another good note after two more sad/amusing/blah dates I really think I should write a book about my dates, kisses, good guys turned bad etc and what I have learned from them, I have an interesting collection of stories could be good. What do you guys think?

The Coast

Went to the Coast yesterday, so needed to see the ocean and get out of Fresno. It was amazing how cool it was near the ocean and it felt sooo nice.
Anyways went there at night so I could watch the sunset. It was so very pretty too.
I got to play in the water by way of the waves being too big and crashed into me!!!
Also stopped at the Madonna Inn which I still say I want to stay in SOOOO bad lol.

Life has been pretty boring lately sadly not much to update on. Working at the prison and started my other practicum which seems like it will be good and a bit more chill then any of the others I have been to. I can wear flip flops!!!!!

Trip Home

So I went home June 4th - 9th. When on got in on the 4th, after a delay in Newark I got to have lunch with my mom and bro then I quickly headed to Boston to see my girls. We went to Brown Sugar because I can't go to Boston without going to Brown Sugar. I have found decent Thai out here but nothing compares to my Drunken Noodle I can get there. We then went to see Sex and the City, which was awesome. It was such a good movie, it was a good ending to a awesome series. I have heard there may be a sequel which would be great too.

The rest of my time home was spent with family doing graduation events, and preparing and all that fun stuff. Graduation was so much fun and my brother made a good speech, short and to the point and mentioned me so it was awesome!!!

Friday was the grad and we did that then Saturday was the party. I got to see a lot of relatives I have not seen in a while and my brothers cake was fantastic!!!



It was a marble cake with a vanilla cream filling so good and was a super cute cake!

The trip back to Fresno was a fiasco but it was probably an omen because I hate it here so much but oh well I am back!

Amazing how things become reality

So I thought I had done a blog about the ridiculous gas prices I saw on my drive to Vegas last August and in fact I did. August 11, 2007 is the original post. But here is the picture again.



I remember the shock and amazement I went through when I saw gas over 4 dollars, now the average gas here is more than the high test stuff in the picture. I would be thrilled to see gas for just 4.29 at this point. It is actually more expensive now for our low grade then the high test in the picture.

2nd year of grad school

Is now done and over. It feels kind of unceremonious. I still have practicum and thesis to work on so I am still busy except this week I am doing nothing school related. I am taking a week to veg out and relax and sadly I am already bored? How sick is that.
Instead this week I am putting together favors for a baby shower, who would have thought? I have no artistic skill what so ever but I volunteered which sucks for me. I am also this week on a mission to get my brother's graduation gift. I have no idea what to get him. He saves up for and buys everything he wants so I am pretty much at a loss. I did get him the book Oh The Places you'll go good ole childrens books for graduation.
The yay news is as I write this I will be home in 22 days 1 hour and 34 minutes. I am so excited for home and seeing my friends and family!!

Damaged Goods

So I know we all have baggage, be it big or small we all have it, and whether we want to admit it or not we all have it. I know I do but I also know well think I can control most of it. There has been times I have sabotaged things and didn't want to but couldn't stop but I like to chalk that up to " Well I guess he wasn't the one". I do not think overall I am too damaged that I don't deserve/need/want someone eventually. I just worry that before I can find the one I should be with someone will get him first and damage him beyond belief. Both men and women do this, take nice people who have amazing potential in the relationship field and fuck them up royally being psycho, bitchy, assholes, cheating etc etc. Some people are resilient some people can go through hell and back in relationships and come out of it still ok, not damaged beyond repair, but others can't. I feel it is usually the ones who have the greatest potential to be amazing boyfriends are the ones who get fucked up beyond repair. I have recently seen this and it makes me sad. Even though I do not know what the final outcome for this guy will be but interacting with him and seeing his potential but then seeing how the pain his wife put him through has damaged him makes me sad. He is a really great guy and will be awesome for someone unless the ex fucks him up more I think. That is a side note though, This is more of a PSA to stop fucking people up, stop being psycho, stop cheating, don't rush into marriage because if you just wait till 25 your chances of staying together substantially increase! Don't be psycho jealous, you need separate lives let them go do their own thing and you do yours. Don't get me wrong I make mistakes and am not perfect, but I think I am a decent catch, I just hope by the time I meet mine he isn't so damaged we don't have a chance.

Rodeo

So my friend and I went to the Rodeo tonight. It was actually much more fun then I thought it would be!!! I have to give those men credit I get nervous just watching it. It was so much fun though I was not sure how I would like it but I enjoyed it a lot. I am attaching some videos of the bull riding part, I have pics of the other parts if anyone wants to see. I do think it is something everyone should do at least once in their life. It is fun times. Odd mix of people but very fun and the odd mix makes it more interesting.

Japanese Garden

So today went to the Japanese Garden here in town. It was almost like being out of Fresno it was great!!! So nice there, saw peacocks, and a panting goose(which was odd), and huge Koi fish. There are many more pics that I took but these to me show how calm and nice it was there.

Creepy Clown

Hopefully the sound works with this if not it won't be as good! This is down on the Santa Cruz Boardwalk he laughs and is creepy has hell!!!

Bodega Bay/ Peanuts Museum

So during my spring break I decided to get away for a couple days. I went up to Bodega Bay, where the Birds was filmed. I stayed at a little Inn in Bodega Bay which if you blink driving through it could miss it. It was great though! I spent the days relaxing, taking in the sights and exploring the area. The coast up there is beautiful.



The first first day there I just explored the area, hung out on the little porch attached to my room and read. I also got to see the sunset that night. The first night had a good sunset the 2nd nights sunset not so good.




On the 2nd day I went to the Charles Shultz Museum, it was so fun. Only 5 bucks to get in and it had all kinds of Snoopy and Peanuts stuff. Worth a trip if you are ever near it. The highlight for me was this wall that is made up of ceramic tiles for the comic strip and all the tiles are formed to make the scene of Lucy trying to get Charlie Brown to kick the football. It was def. cool.




Overall the trip was great loved getting away and out of town. I am now back to my daily grind which is not as fun!!

Earth Hour 2008!!!!!

At 8pm (local time), on March 29, 2008 millions of people in some of the world’s major capital cities will unite and switch off for Earth Hour. See what is happening in your city and how you can get involved.

So not much happening in my city but that is not a surprise to me. Also, nothing going on in Boston which is sad since it is a major city. So to all my Boston people take note and take part in this.

I am planning on doing it, for an hour I will be hanging by candlelight in my Apt.

http://www.earthhour.org/ Here is the website for the movement. Visit the site, if you can do it sign up

A Blog for the Menfolk of the World

Well not that any men read my blog but maybe a couple will wander upon my blog and spread this message. Several conversations I have had recently have lead to this blog.
I have conflicting ideas of why men do this but it is amazing to me. So here is the issue why do men say things like " Oh I need a woman like you", " Why can't there be more women like you" " You are just what I want in a woman" " You are the perfect woman, why can't I meet someone like you". These comments are great when said straight to your face because last time I checked if you are talking to me you have met someone like me lol.
When I asked one of my guy friends about this he was like well guys say it because we want to test the waters and see how you react. So my response to him was well I will tell you how we react. It PISSES US OFF. What you actually mean is why can't I find someone like you who I am sexually attracted to or find attractive. It is not a compliment and when you are saying it after breaking up with your latest idiot bimbo you have been dating no one believes you. If you want someone like me then ask me out sorry if I am not cute enough or what but if that is the case then you don't want someone like me you want an upgraded prettier version of me.
There is my latest rant for the day lol.

I'm Coming Home!

Well for a visit anyways lol

I get in Weds the 4th of June at 930. I plan on coming to Boston that night, and having dinner with friends. The plan on staying Weds night and be around Thursday. I will leave sometime Thursday and head back to W Mass. My bro graduates on Friday and I will be there till Sunday at 4.

So excited to see people!!

Home Remedies from the Olden Days

So I recently got a book called " 5 people who died during sex - and 100 other terribly tasteless lists" and I have to say I am quite amused by it so I figure I will slowly share my amusement via blog and hope I am not going to get in trouble for copying the lists. But I said where it was from so I guess i wont.

So this first one is funny. it is 10 home remedies from the Tudor Times

1. Asthma: Swallow young frogs or live spiders coated in butter.

2. Gout: Boil a red-haired dog in oil, then add worms and the marrow from pig bones; apply the mixture.

3. Headache: Rub the forehead with a rope used to hang a criminal.

4. Rheumatism: Wear the skin of a donkey.

5. Jaundice: Drink a pint of ale containing nine drowned head lice every morning for a week.

6. Bubonic plague: Hold a live chicken against the sores until the bird dies.

7. Whooping Cough: Find a ferret, feed it with milk, then give the leftover milk to the sick child.

8. Warts: Lay half a mouse on the wart for half an hour and then bury it in the ground. As the mouse rots, the warts will vanish.

9. Baldness: Rub dog or horse urine into the scalp.

10. Deafness: Mix the gallstones of a hare and the grease of a fox, warm the result, and place it in the ear.

The Wall

So it has been quite a while since I watched the Wall such a messed up movie but I do have to say I quite like it.I don't know if it is just because I love Pink Floyd or because I am demented so I would like The Wall. It is quite a powerful yet disturbed movie. So the first time I watched this movie I was a senior in high school. I am not even sure how this was allowed to be shown in high school. It is one fucked movie. If you haven't seen it, I think it is worth checking out.




On a side note I am making a short trip home to my brother's graduation in June and hope to have dinner with people!!!

This is why i don't miss roommates!!

So I was randomly telling the cheese story to someone yesterday. Oh yes was at Costco and saw the massive stack of Kraft Singles American cheese and was reminded of how horrifically entertaining roommates can be.
I do miss some roommates but not one who would put this note on his Kraft American Singles. No one was stealing his cheese by the way.
( Pic lifted from another blog as mine were lost)

Cool Kangaroos

So my friend from school and I decided to go to the zoo here in fresno and omg these kangaroos cracked me up, they looked they were were fashion models posing.

Online Dating Part 2

So yea those eharmony ads LIE there is no one quality on the site, well none that match with me anyways lol.

So finally got through their ridiculous guided communication with this one guy and the email he sends me goes like this

"sniffing glue is fun
sniff sniff
wait thats not glus
im so sleepy now
peace out have a nice day"

I was like wtf?!?!

Most recent email from a 33 year old
"Can you tell me more about you?
What were you like in high school. I mean were you in any clubs, sports or anything?" so my response was wouldnt asking questions about how I am now be more relevant since HS was 10 years ago
He closed our match lol

I had one guy who said in his thing "can you be the first and only girl to see my apartment? In order to see if you have to be able to ride from where i work up a 1500ft incline to my apartment on your bike" good luck with that buddy.

Another guy was like "some people think I am very shallow but I am really just a down to earth guy" So in other words if he thinks your hot he isn't shallow.

Those are just the ones I can remember off the top of my head.

I am so done with dating or attempting to date. I don't know why I try.
Why can't my crush just be on the same coast as me and I could give that a try???

Valentine's Day

So this week is Valentine's Day. It is a day that makes single people feel like they should have someone and odd enough for the day of love is also a day that causes many fights among couples. A lot of that is because Valentine's Day is built up to be this big day of love and romance and passion and not everyone can live up to the hype. It is a hallmark holiday. The one day a year when your man is supposed to be attentive and loving and romantic. I am not sure why that is not expect the rest of the year but ya know. The fights couples have on Valentine's Day stem from this belief that your man should be uber romantic that day. This doesn't always happen, men are oblivious and their idea of romance is often very different from women. The fights on V Day crack me up because it is just a day, no need to get uptight about it or expect too much from your man or get pissed when he doesn't live up to your ridiculous expectations. If your man honestly has to buy you something expensive and take you out for an expensive dinner to show he loves you there are other issues in the relationship that should be dealt with.

And as for us single girls, be glad we don't have to go out to overcrowded eateries and watch couples pretend to be happy, even though that can be amusing. Don't let yourself get down because you are single on a made up romantic hallmark holiday. It is ok, it is not a big deal! Grab yourself some friends and enjoy the night, expectation and drama free.

First Kisses

So... I was talking to my old roommate the other day, not even sure how I brought it up but I realized a kiss of mine that is in the top five was in a bar. I don't know if that is sad, pathetic, sick or what but it is something. Not that I go around ranking my kisses on a regular basis, but unless I am strange we all have those kisses we remember. And when I say remember I mean for better or worse I could rank my top five good as well as my top five bad. Does that make me a kissing whore? Maybe not five and five but still! So yea when one of my best kisses was in a bar, the Last Drop to make it worse, it makes me wonder lots.
I think I will start with my bad kisses because hey they are more fun.
This was hard because I have had a lot of bad kisses, i don't know if it is because men are forgetting how to kiss as they age or getting lazy but it is interesting.
No particular order with these:
~ I had one whose tongue hit my mouth LONG before his lips did. Which is not ok, because for a first kiss I do not want a tongue rammed down my throat ever (this is a reoccurring trend these days). So yea it got better because as he was trying to make out with my insides i bit his tongue to give me a hint and it did not work.
~Another horrible bad first kiss similar to the first, tongue issue but it was not so much ramming but like exploring my mouth with his tongue, I felt like he was cleaning my teeth with his tongue. That one actually kind of gave me the heebie jeebies lol.
~One of the worst was actually entertaining. It was a guy I knew who I had discussed my frustrations with about kissing as I do many people. His response was to kiss me, and give me one of the lamest kisses I have ever had in my whole life. It was like weak, I could barely tell he was kissing me. Ick it was pretty lame. The worst part of it was he seemed to think he was this great kisser, yea not so much.
~Another awkward moment in kissing is when a guy has asked to kiss me ahead of time. That is the worst, especially when you don't want them to kiss you. It kills the mood if there was one and is totally horrible for you if you don't want to kiss him lol.

Now onto good ones. I have thought about what makes a kiss good or bad to me. We know what makes them bad but good is a different story. Good tends to differ I guess on the situation and the person. Again where I begin to think I may be a kissing whore. There is this whole debate about first dates and to kiss or not to kiss. I think kissing on a first date is 110% fine if there is chemistry there. Granted i am not as good with the showing a guy how I feel these days but back in the day i was good at it! To me if I have had a great or good first date that first kiss lets me know if there is chemistry or not. Sparks so to speak. Along with the first kiss on a date I think they should not need to happen at the end of the date. I know this is the comfortable place and time to do it during the date but it is so cliche. I think especially if it is a lengthy first date kiss her when you feel it and think she does. (again with the kissing whore thing). So on that note some of my best first kisses:
~ I will start with the bar one ha. Middle of the week in the winter and we had gone there to play pool and just hang out because it would be dead. We were talking after playing pool and all the sudden mid sentence he leaned in and kissed me. Butterflies in the stomach kind of kiss but it was Out of no where, no asking lol. Once we had kissed he just smiled and said "sorry I just had to do that" It is sad that I still grin when i think of that one.
~ Another good one was actually an end of the date kiss. He had driven me back to my car and we were talking and saying goodbye. He then reached out and cupped my cheek and leaned in for the kiss. I don't know if it is just me but the cupping the cheek or face thing melts me, without fail.
~ The other good one is the surprise random one. This one was after a while hanging out with this guy, we were hanging at his house after spending ridiculous amounts of time together that weekend. We were sitting on the floor in front of his fish tank and the kiss just happened, it was expected yet not because it was not a date it was just hanging out, and it was good which is hard to find!
To me that first kiss should give butterflies or make you grin about it the next day. That to me is what makes a good first kiss, I have had other good ones but those stuck out. When you end the relationship and can still think fondly about the first kiss that is a good first kiss!!

Online Dating

So I have begun online dating and I have to say I do not believe those ads on TV. I have yet to find anyone here worth while. I did actually find on who was actually from the town I am in which in California is huge because well it is huge lol. He seemed to have potential had his masters, taught at the community college level, wanted his PhD. So I talked to him on the phone. I wanted to shoot myself the whole conversation. He is one of if not the most boring person I have ever met in my whole life. His "interesting" stories were so far from interesting it was sad. My other thing was he was 5'7 which is the height I pretend I am even though I am like 5'6 1/2ish. I was willing to overlook the height thing because finding an educated person has been hard here but I can't overlook it when he is the most boring person alive.
Other people I have talked to have made it clear they are just looking for sex which yea not interested. Others have taken themselves out of the running by asking rude and inappropriate questions, other than do you want to have sex lol.

So I have to say i am pretty sure I will be single the rest of my time here in CA well this particular town anyways. I don't have the energy to continue to sort through the bad to find one good. I have had a couple chances since I have been here, the one who I think would have had the best potential I blew because of my own stupidity so maybe now this is my punishment who knows.

Dreams

Dreams are very strange and I really think I need to look into what mine mean. I have been having some insane crazy ones these days and I wish I knew what they were all about.

Trip Home and New Years Resolution

So I am back in CA, feels like I never left which makes me a bit sad. I spent my time home, besides the being sick is was a lot of fun. I miss my family a lot and know for sure that when i am done with school I want to head back East. Christmas was good, got to see a lot of family. Went to see PS I Love You and it was so very good, makes me think I may never find love like that. New Years eve was very calm I was so sick blah. New Years Day Poker party was smaller than usual because of a big storm on the day :(. The day after new years I went down to Boston and had dinner with friends, it was fun but it was the beginning of my mouth problem. The drive home from Boston that day was horrific. Come to find out I need a root canal not thrilled about that at all.

I miss the puppy though she is sooooo freaking cute. As cute as she is I have to say it was a bit odd to not have my Abby there, I miss her lots and as much as my mom loves the puppy she misses her Abby too. If anyone wants to see pics I can show you my picasa album of them.

On a brighter note my Brother got his Eagle Scout the Sunday before I left. I am so proud of him, it is such a huge accomplishment and I have to say I got a bit teary eyed, my little dude is grown up and its scary and exciting.

On to my new years resolution took me 7 days to have my first regret. On the 7th I hung out with this kid I have been talking to and it was fun, made me more confused about the crush I had on him but what can you do. Why are guys so confusing and eh. I guess it doesnt much matter since he is in MA and I am in CA. So I guess my resolution will turn more into less regrets instead of none.

My last two days in MA were just hanging with my family. I was finally feeling better, had lunch with my cousin, and just chilled with my family.

Trip back to CA was uneventful which after the trip out to MA is a very good thing!!

I have my dentist appointment today, I wish I was not a 27 year old baby and afraid of the dentist but I should maybe get over that and I would not need a root canal!!!